Dear Mr. Jesus,
Thank you for helping me keep my sanity over the last week of madness and aggravation. Thank you also for granting me the consciousness to simply delete the email I got from my mother today, rather than respond. I promise to pray for her. I really could have done without seeing the crazy crackhead guy that walked in front of my hotel with his pants down, but I guess you needed me to see that things could always be worse. At least Im not a crazy crackhead, walking in front of hotels with my pants down. I appreciate that. And lastly, Mr. Jesus, thank you for the apartment I just got approved for. Its not where I wanted it to be, but I acknowledge that You know better than I do. Real clever of you to have my landlord's name be Angel. I should have known.
Anyway, Im sure you have a world of other letters to read tonight, so I'll let you go. Thanks for working in such mysterious ways so I cant subconciously manage to mess it up. You rock, and Amen.
Love Always,
Dig
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Gravity 2
On the way home the other night, I dropped a ten dollar bill in the guitar case of a guy who was singing outside of the Pathmark when I got off the bus. It was partially because I felt bad for not leaving money for various people I've heard in the subway who really were awesome, partially because he was awesome, and partially because I had no other place to leave an offering.
One thing I really miss is having a church to go to when I feel like I felt the other night. That night (or morning) I woke up at 4-something, as I typically do when God feels like He has something to say. I never really know what He's telling me, but I usually wake up in the morning feeling differently than I did the night before. That particular morning, I woke up to a text from one of my friends, who I miss so dearly.... "You never have to ask 'Father can you hear me?' He can, He always does & He always will provide a way." Thank you. I really needed to be reminded that the will of God will never take me where the grace of God wont protect me, and that there is a reason I am where I am right now, doing what Im doing, even when I dont know what it is.
Its amazing. Today I was outside, listening to my IPOD, and the same song I heard the other night came on: Gravity. It sounded different.
"Twice as much and twice as good, and cant sustain like one half could.
Its wanting more, its gonna send me to my knees..."
On my knees is where I needed to be.
I woke up this morning and watched a show I've never watched before: Life Every Voice. If you have never seen it, it basically brings celebrities on to talk about how much a part Jesus plays in their lives. I was hit hard by some things that were said, and reminded, once again, to hold to my faith. "Gravity" now sounded like more of a song of acknowledgement than one of woe. It was a song that said "I know you see whats happening around you, but remember who you are and who HE is."
And I will.
One thing I really miss is having a church to go to when I feel like I felt the other night. That night (or morning) I woke up at 4-something, as I typically do when God feels like He has something to say. I never really know what He's telling me, but I usually wake up in the morning feeling differently than I did the night before. That particular morning, I woke up to a text from one of my friends, who I miss so dearly.... "You never have to ask 'Father can you hear me?' He can, He always does & He always will provide a way." Thank you. I really needed to be reminded that the will of God will never take me where the grace of God wont protect me, and that there is a reason I am where I am right now, doing what Im doing, even when I dont know what it is.
Its amazing. Today I was outside, listening to my IPOD, and the same song I heard the other night came on: Gravity. It sounded different.
"Twice as much and twice as good, and cant sustain like one half could.
Its wanting more, its gonna send me to my knees..."
On my knees is where I needed to be.
I woke up this morning and watched a show I've never watched before: Life Every Voice. If you have never seen it, it basically brings celebrities on to talk about how much a part Jesus plays in their lives. I was hit hard by some things that were said, and reminded, once again, to hold to my faith. "Gravity" now sounded like more of a song of acknowledgement than one of woe. It was a song that said "I know you see whats happening around you, but remember who you are and who HE is."
And I will.
Friday, October 22, 2010
Gravity
I had a meltdown today.
At the very tail end of the day, my emotions started to overwhelm me. I made it out of the building and around the corner to the train station before things really started to take a tumble. I got on the train without looking, assuming it was the one I needed - because it always is - and it was going in the wrong direction. When I realized it, the levee broke and it was all I could do to swallow back the tears. On my IPOD: "Gravity" - John Maher.
"Gravity is working against me.
Gravity wants to bring me down..."
I got off at the next stop, thinking I'd just go up, out and around and get back on the 6 in the opposite direction, but by the time I made it up the stairs, I was looking for a wall to slide down. I went all the way out of the station, and found a rail to lean against, but what was I supposed to do then? I was still in the midst of a rack of people who didnt need to see me being a mess, so I whipped out my blackberry and tried to distract myself long enough to pull myself together.
I was ok for a little bit. I got back on the train and continued with my normal commute, choking back tears at several points along the way as various other songs played on my IPOD, mocking the state I was in, then by the time I hit the port authority, my eyes just flooded. I closed them as I went up the escalator, to keep any tears from falling, and I told myself I could make it home - or at least the pseudo-home I was headed to. Wrong again. The wait for the bus was about twenty minutes. I spent the last ten avoiding my reflection in the glass, knowing it would be over if I saw the face of how I was feeling.
20 minutes later, I got off the rush hour bus and walked up the street that, for once, had no people on it. I could cry now without being a spectacle. But I couldnt. The tears just wouldnt come.
Even now, I just feel kind of numb. i know some time tonight, I'll break, but right now, there's nothing. The apartment search is extremely frustrating, not to mention, putting my body through hell. I'll be sick any day now, or my back will throw out, and I cant afford either. My mother is still calling me, asking me for money like she dont give a damn about me having to put a deposit down on a place, and acting like Im the one being selfish. My kids arent even there anymore - Im supposed to give you some RETROACTIVE shit, when I've already given you $450? Now you want me to pay for your parking pass? YOUR PARKING PASS, NIGGA??? REALLY??? I really feel like she saw me getting this job as an opportunity for HER to come up. I send her money for a specific purpose, she does something else with it, and expects me to send her more money for the original purpose. Where they do that at?
I miss my friends. Like.... I REALLY miss my friends. Even the ones that get on my nerves a lot. The shady ones.... the sometimey ones.... the lyin ass ones LOL.... I miss them. On any given night, I'd get a text saying someone was on their way, and even if we didnt mean to, we'd end up in some serendipitous conversation neither of us knew we needed so much. My friend here, we're not friends like that. We dont talk like that. I know people down here, yeah, but for all intents and purposes, they are just that - people I know.
I miss my kids like crazy, and Im gonna have to disappoint them and not go see them next weekend for Halloween, like I planned. Apartments here are expensive as hell and I've only been working for a month. I cant afford to spend another dime until I secure a place, if Im gonna move on the 1st, and Im not all that sure I'll be able to. Its in a week and a half and I'll be in DC most of that time. If something doesnt shake in the next couple of days...... *sigh*
I gave up everything for this. I WILL make it work, if I gotta move outta here and stay in a hotel until an apartment turns up. But Im homesick. I wish I could afford to go back for the weekend and just get a dose of home to tide me over for a while. I cant.... obviously. So I guess all there is to do is make it through the night.
"Gravity has taken better men than me
But how can that be?
Just keep me where the light is......."
At the very tail end of the day, my emotions started to overwhelm me. I made it out of the building and around the corner to the train station before things really started to take a tumble. I got on the train without looking, assuming it was the one I needed - because it always is - and it was going in the wrong direction. When I realized it, the levee broke and it was all I could do to swallow back the tears. On my IPOD: "Gravity" - John Maher.
"Gravity is working against me.
Gravity wants to bring me down..."
I got off at the next stop, thinking I'd just go up, out and around and get back on the 6 in the opposite direction, but by the time I made it up the stairs, I was looking for a wall to slide down. I went all the way out of the station, and found a rail to lean against, but what was I supposed to do then? I was still in the midst of a rack of people who didnt need to see me being a mess, so I whipped out my blackberry and tried to distract myself long enough to pull myself together.
I was ok for a little bit. I got back on the train and continued with my normal commute, choking back tears at several points along the way as various other songs played on my IPOD, mocking the state I was in, then by the time I hit the port authority, my eyes just flooded. I closed them as I went up the escalator, to keep any tears from falling, and I told myself I could make it home - or at least the pseudo-home I was headed to. Wrong again. The wait for the bus was about twenty minutes. I spent the last ten avoiding my reflection in the glass, knowing it would be over if I saw the face of how I was feeling.
20 minutes later, I got off the rush hour bus and walked up the street that, for once, had no people on it. I could cry now without being a spectacle. But I couldnt. The tears just wouldnt come.
Even now, I just feel kind of numb. i know some time tonight, I'll break, but right now, there's nothing. The apartment search is extremely frustrating, not to mention, putting my body through hell. I'll be sick any day now, or my back will throw out, and I cant afford either. My mother is still calling me, asking me for money like she dont give a damn about me having to put a deposit down on a place, and acting like Im the one being selfish. My kids arent even there anymore - Im supposed to give you some RETROACTIVE shit, when I've already given you $450? Now you want me to pay for your parking pass? YOUR PARKING PASS, NIGGA??? REALLY??? I really feel like she saw me getting this job as an opportunity for HER to come up. I send her money for a specific purpose, she does something else with it, and expects me to send her more money for the original purpose. Where they do that at?
I miss my friends. Like.... I REALLY miss my friends. Even the ones that get on my nerves a lot. The shady ones.... the sometimey ones.... the lyin ass ones LOL.... I miss them. On any given night, I'd get a text saying someone was on their way, and even if we didnt mean to, we'd end up in some serendipitous conversation neither of us knew we needed so much. My friend here, we're not friends like that. We dont talk like that. I know people down here, yeah, but for all intents and purposes, they are just that - people I know.
I miss my kids like crazy, and Im gonna have to disappoint them and not go see them next weekend for Halloween, like I planned. Apartments here are expensive as hell and I've only been working for a month. I cant afford to spend another dime until I secure a place, if Im gonna move on the 1st, and Im not all that sure I'll be able to. Its in a week and a half and I'll be in DC most of that time. If something doesnt shake in the next couple of days...... *sigh*
I gave up everything for this. I WILL make it work, if I gotta move outta here and stay in a hotel until an apartment turns up. But Im homesick. I wish I could afford to go back for the weekend and just get a dose of home to tide me over for a while. I cant.... obviously. So I guess all there is to do is make it through the night.
"Gravity has taken better men than me
But how can that be?
Just keep me where the light is......."
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Exhausted
I really wanna blog tonight, but the truth is, I dont think I could keep a train of thought, with all the pain Im in LOL. I feel like Im gonna wake up in the morning and come back from the shower to find that my legs are still in the bed LOL. If I dont find a place soon, Ima just live at work LOL. I thought I could just start back on my vitamins, but NYC said "HA! I laugh in di face ov ju vitamins!" LOL Theyre totally not working LOL. BUT Im down ten pounds - holla!
Saturday, October 16, 2010
These Boys, These Boys....
...never learn.
So I met this guy last weekend when I went out. In a just-kidding-unless-you-really-gon-do-it way, he was lobbying for me to go home with him. Of course, that wasnt happening, but we did spend a long time talking and texting that night, and he's been texting me all week, whether I've been in town or not. His objective is still to get my drawz off, but we know this only happens when Dig wants it to, so lets keep it all in perspective LOL.
So we planned to link up last night, but my girlfriend decided she didnt wanna go out and I wasnt gonna go alone and hover until he got off and then "see" what the damn plan was gonna be, so I didnt go. I told him we could hang out today, after I finished looking at the couple of apartments I was going to see, but being the man that he is, he called me at like 8, when he was already at work (at the club) trying to make plans for when he got off - at midnight.
*staring into the camera*
First of all, let me tell you what his idea of a plan was LOL.... Im in Jersey. He wanted me to meet him in the city (Manhattan) at midnight, then we'd go together wherever we were decided to go [read: hotel or his house LOL]. Second of all, did I mention we talkin bout at midnight? LOL Um............no LOL.
I wish I could say my mother instilled this in me, but that would be an untruth and disservice to my own natural sense of.....sense LOL. The truth is, my mama never taught me a damn thing about how to deal with the opposite sex, unless you count what I've seen of her haphazard personal engagements, which really just taught me what not to do. I feel like a man who wants to see a woman should show her enough respect to not expect her to put her safety in jeopardy to meet him in some god-forsaken place, at all times of night. Said DRIVING man should pick said woman up and carry her to the agreed upon destination. Said man who utilizes public transportation should utilize his way to wherever the hell she is and escort her to the agreed upon destination, or at the very least, take on the responsibility of paying for the taxi that will safely carry her from point A to point B, while he texts her the entire way to make sure she didnt go missing LOL. To expect her to be on a bus, train, or come out of her own pocket for a $60-70 cab is unacceptable, and lack of understanding in said manner will only serve to show just how 27 you are - already a strike against you LOL.
So naturally, my answer was "HELL NOT" and he could respond in no other way than to say that he understood. Im glad you do. But Im guessing that this is only a sign of what is yet to come, so I would be really surprised if Im talking about said club bouncer guy for very much longer. If I am, it means he's in love with me already and doing everything I say LOL.
Im just saying LOL
So I met this guy last weekend when I went out. In a just-kidding-unless-you-really-gon-do-it way, he was lobbying for me to go home with him. Of course, that wasnt happening, but we did spend a long time talking and texting that night, and he's been texting me all week, whether I've been in town or not. His objective is still to get my drawz off, but we know this only happens when Dig wants it to, so lets keep it all in perspective LOL.
So we planned to link up last night, but my girlfriend decided she didnt wanna go out and I wasnt gonna go alone and hover until he got off and then "see" what the damn plan was gonna be, so I didnt go. I told him we could hang out today, after I finished looking at the couple of apartments I was going to see, but being the man that he is, he called me at like 8, when he was already at work (at the club) trying to make plans for when he got off - at midnight.
*staring into the camera*
First of all, let me tell you what his idea of a plan was LOL.... Im in Jersey. He wanted me to meet him in the city (Manhattan) at midnight, then we'd go together wherever we were decided to go [read: hotel or his house LOL]. Second of all, did I mention we talkin bout at midnight? LOL Um............no LOL.
I wish I could say my mother instilled this in me, but that would be an untruth and disservice to my own natural sense of.....sense LOL. The truth is, my mama never taught me a damn thing about how to deal with the opposite sex, unless you count what I've seen of her haphazard personal engagements, which really just taught me what not to do. I feel like a man who wants to see a woman should show her enough respect to not expect her to put her safety in jeopardy to meet him in some god-forsaken place, at all times of night. Said DRIVING man should pick said woman up and carry her to the agreed upon destination. Said man who utilizes public transportation should utilize his way to wherever the hell she is and escort her to the agreed upon destination, or at the very least, take on the responsibility of paying for the taxi that will safely carry her from point A to point B, while he texts her the entire way to make sure she didnt go missing LOL. To expect her to be on a bus, train, or come out of her own pocket for a $60-70 cab is unacceptable, and lack of understanding in said manner will only serve to show just how 27 you are - already a strike against you LOL.
So naturally, my answer was "HELL NOT" and he could respond in no other way than to say that he understood. Im glad you do. But Im guessing that this is only a sign of what is yet to come, so I would be really surprised if Im talking about said club bouncer guy for very much longer. If I am, it means he's in love with me already and doing everything I say LOL.
Im just saying LOL
Friday, October 15, 2010
Progress
I know, I know, its been a hectic week. Yall can turn off the hate mail now LOL.
I spent pretty much all week in DC, came back last night. Walked in the house and it was like the dryest "hi.." ever in life, on both my part and hers. After traveling and working hard and dealing with the rain and taxis that are, at first, non-existent, and then costing a grip to get me where I needed to go, I really would have liked to come home to my own shit. I think last night is when it set in most heavily, like yo, I gots to get hot. Then tonight... who in the hell spit-shines their crib at 10/9 central? LOL Im not talking about straightening up or making the place presentable for company - Im talking about laying on the floor with a damp rag, cleaning up under cabinets type shit. Im sitting on the couch, in the middle of the room, and she's getting her Hazel on all around me for like two hours, nobody saying a word the whole time. Seriously? It was the kind of uncomfortable that made me not even feel right asking if she wanted some help, like she'd just say no cause she wanted it done her way, like everything else, and that just made it worse, cause, of course, I felt like I was painted into a corner.
So I spent all day searching listings and I have to go see two of them tomorrow, both in Jersey - ugh! I REALLY dont wanna be in Jersey, but price and space-wise, as well as commute and time-wise, its what I think Im gonna end up doing for the time being. At least I will have my own space and can start to put things together for the midgets to come down, and come summer, I can move into the city, where I really wanna be. But we'll see. I may not even dig these places. I will keep you posted. Im in town all next week, so I will be able to see some more spots, as I find them, and then Im gone the whole following week. If I havent worked it out by the time I come back, I think Im just gonna relocate to a hotel near the job. It may raise an eyebrow, and it will surely spend money I should be saving, but its probably the best way to preserve a friendship being quietly punched in the throat via our current situation. Again, we'll see.
But I do have my own desk and phone now at work (YAY!) and I am now starting to see places since I finally have the money to secure one. Im making progress. Im also in the process of making arrangements to move the midgets from one grandmother to another, where I feel they will be a lot better off and I wont have to worry about the type of foolishness that has been going on at my mom's. I didnt even tell yall about the major blowup that occurred on Tuesday night. Im not even gonna get into it now, but suffice it to say that that situation was not gonna work out. Things are slowly moving along though and I am getting a handle on this process. Im starting to develop a little routine and as soon as I have a permanent address, that routine can be cemented. This is gonna work out. I've given up everything I have and its not gonna be for nothing....
I spent pretty much all week in DC, came back last night. Walked in the house and it was like the dryest "hi.." ever in life, on both my part and hers. After traveling and working hard and dealing with the rain and taxis that are, at first, non-existent, and then costing a grip to get me where I needed to go, I really would have liked to come home to my own shit. I think last night is when it set in most heavily, like yo, I gots to get hot. Then tonight... who in the hell spit-shines their crib at 10/9 central? LOL Im not talking about straightening up or making the place presentable for company - Im talking about laying on the floor with a damp rag, cleaning up under cabinets type shit. Im sitting on the couch, in the middle of the room, and she's getting her Hazel on all around me for like two hours, nobody saying a word the whole time. Seriously? It was the kind of uncomfortable that made me not even feel right asking if she wanted some help, like she'd just say no cause she wanted it done her way, like everything else, and that just made it worse, cause, of course, I felt like I was painted into a corner.
So I spent all day searching listings and I have to go see two of them tomorrow, both in Jersey - ugh! I REALLY dont wanna be in Jersey, but price and space-wise, as well as commute and time-wise, its what I think Im gonna end up doing for the time being. At least I will have my own space and can start to put things together for the midgets to come down, and come summer, I can move into the city, where I really wanna be. But we'll see. I may not even dig these places. I will keep you posted. Im in town all next week, so I will be able to see some more spots, as I find them, and then Im gone the whole following week. If I havent worked it out by the time I come back, I think Im just gonna relocate to a hotel near the job. It may raise an eyebrow, and it will surely spend money I should be saving, but its probably the best way to preserve a friendship being quietly punched in the throat via our current situation. Again, we'll see.
But I do have my own desk and phone now at work (YAY!) and I am now starting to see places since I finally have the money to secure one. Im making progress. Im also in the process of making arrangements to move the midgets from one grandmother to another, where I feel they will be a lot better off and I wont have to worry about the type of foolishness that has been going on at my mom's. I didnt even tell yall about the major blowup that occurred on Tuesday night. Im not even gonna get into it now, but suffice it to say that that situation was not gonna work out. Things are slowly moving along though and I am getting a handle on this process. Im starting to develop a little routine and as soon as I have a permanent address, that routine can be cemented. This is gonna work out. I've given up everything I have and its not gonna be for nothing....
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Feeling Better
*exhale*
So its not Friday - I still have to go in to work tomorrow - but I feel like the worst of the week is behind me. Im on a train back to Jersey right now, a place I havent seen in a week, and Im sort of looking forward to it. I will be financially ready to get my own place next weekend, so part of me is apt to appreciate my temporary digs a little more, knowing I wont be in them much longer. I've only started looking casually, so its not like I have any idea where Im moving to, but its not that difficult a process, once I make time for it. All this coming week, I will be hitting up my local connects, researching school districts and private schools, so that I can make a more informed decision on what area I need to move in to keep my kids' education at a level that I find acceptable. But it will get done.
My bank account is COMPLETELY fucked up right now, but Im not worried about it. It will all be resolved once my direct deposit goes in tomorrow. I might only have access to about half of what goes in there, but hey, thats that old life residue hasnt completely burned away yet LOL. Its a process. Im patient.
Im starting to maximize my trips to DC, having had the opportunity to catch up with a couple of my friends while I was there. Im also starting to get the hang of what my job is all about. I processed my first couple of conracts yesterday - one of which has already been signed and returned - so I actually get to see the process play all the way out, from beginning to end. Im feeling kinda awesome LOL.
Now all I gotta do is survive this train ride and not let the motion sickness Im experiencing be the cause of me blowing chunks all over the place, and I will be okay...
So its not Friday - I still have to go in to work tomorrow - but I feel like the worst of the week is behind me. Im on a train back to Jersey right now, a place I havent seen in a week, and Im sort of looking forward to it. I will be financially ready to get my own place next weekend, so part of me is apt to appreciate my temporary digs a little more, knowing I wont be in them much longer. I've only started looking casually, so its not like I have any idea where Im moving to, but its not that difficult a process, once I make time for it. All this coming week, I will be hitting up my local connects, researching school districts and private schools, so that I can make a more informed decision on what area I need to move in to keep my kids' education at a level that I find acceptable. But it will get done.
My bank account is COMPLETELY fucked up right now, but Im not worried about it. It will all be resolved once my direct deposit goes in tomorrow. I might only have access to about half of what goes in there, but hey, thats that old life residue hasnt completely burned away yet LOL. Its a process. Im patient.
Im starting to maximize my trips to DC, having had the opportunity to catch up with a couple of my friends while I was there. Im also starting to get the hang of what my job is all about. I processed my first couple of conracts yesterday - one of which has already been signed and returned - so I actually get to see the process play all the way out, from beginning to end. Im feeling kinda awesome LOL.
Now all I gotta do is survive this train ride and not let the motion sickness Im experiencing be the cause of me blowing chunks all over the place, and I will be okay...
Monday, October 4, 2010
10/4: Roger That
So this is a really, really nice, HUGE hotel, but the service already sucks. It took me like twenty minutes to check in because the chick at the desk, who looked all of about 14, was trying to tell me my stay wasnt pre-paid. I know good and damn well it was, as it always is, and she swore up and down that a reservation was made, but they never received authorization to take payment. Twenty minutes later, after I had to call my company travel group's emergency 800#, she goes back into the office and finds the preauthorization in some other stack of papers from Friday.
Then she wants to tell me that she needs my credit card to put a hold on some funds for incidentals. That's fine - pretty standard - but you not gonna tell me you gonna hold $50 for each day Im supposed to be there. Ive been outta town more than I been in town in the last couple weeks, and never have I had a hotel take $50 per day - in advance, at that. I just came back from upstate this morning, staying in a hotel all weekend, and they didnt do it either. I stayed at this same hotel chain last time I was here and they didnt do it then either, but I had gotten so aggravated, I told her to take the damn card and proceeded to leave a message for my admin, in front of her, telling her that I was not pleased with my experience and that she was not to have me booked there again LOL. Then I told her "as a matter of fact, see if you can arrange to have me moved tomorrow" LMAO! They aint hardly bout to move my ass, but I just wanted to piss the lady off cause she pissed me off LOL.
Then I go to the hotel store for a damn near $4 bottle of cranberry juice and get harassed by one of the bellhops and the lady behind the counter, who swear up and down that Im from Africa LOL. Talkin about "dont hide it, be pride, be pride!" STFU LOL. They worse than the fools in the pizza parlor down on 167th in the Bronx, who, summer after summer, wanted to argue me down about whether I was Dominican or not LOL. WTF is wrong with people?
But anyway, I havent been happy with any of my business stays besides the one I wrote about. Its a little ways away from the office down here, but I think I'd rather pay for the longer cab ride and be content with my arrangements, than be close to the job and ready to burn this bitch to the ground. Actually, I need to see if its possible to just have them rent me a car, so I can drive down and be mobile while Im here. Im gonna look into that. I took the train this time, which was a much better experience than the plane fuckery I've been having to endure, but Im a driver. I'd much rather do that. Im gonna see if the powers that be will approve that.
I had a good time with the midgets at home this weekend, and didnt get to see all of my friends, nor the random ass people requesting that I drop by, but I enjoyed myself with the couple of people that I did catch up with. I made a valiant attempt to talk to my mother but.... she'll never change. I'll leave it at that. My son isnt quite the innocent though. He's contributing to their drama with his attitude and laziness, so I had to have a chat with him about that too. I have to monitor that situation some more over the next couple of weeks. I dont want to make any rash decisions, with only half the information.
A whole lotta money later, I was exhausted this morning (shocker LOL) and totally not looking forward to any further travel, but the upside is that hotel beds are always ridiculously comfortable. I'll definitely get a good sleep and Lord knows Im due for one. I forgot my vitamins, so to compensate, I've decided to fast this week: Im gonna live on bacardi and Lays LOL. Dont question my methods LOL.
Then she wants to tell me that she needs my credit card to put a hold on some funds for incidentals. That's fine - pretty standard - but you not gonna tell me you gonna hold $50 for each day Im supposed to be there. Ive been outta town more than I been in town in the last couple weeks, and never have I had a hotel take $50 per day - in advance, at that. I just came back from upstate this morning, staying in a hotel all weekend, and they didnt do it either. I stayed at this same hotel chain last time I was here and they didnt do it then either, but I had gotten so aggravated, I told her to take the damn card and proceeded to leave a message for my admin, in front of her, telling her that I was not pleased with my experience and that she was not to have me booked there again LOL. Then I told her "as a matter of fact, see if you can arrange to have me moved tomorrow" LMAO! They aint hardly bout to move my ass, but I just wanted to piss the lady off cause she pissed me off LOL.
Then I go to the hotel store for a damn near $4 bottle of cranberry juice and get harassed by one of the bellhops and the lady behind the counter, who swear up and down that Im from Africa LOL. Talkin about "dont hide it, be pride, be pride!" STFU LOL. They worse than the fools in the pizza parlor down on 167th in the Bronx, who, summer after summer, wanted to argue me down about whether I was Dominican or not LOL. WTF is wrong with people?
But anyway, I havent been happy with any of my business stays besides the one I wrote about. Its a little ways away from the office down here, but I think I'd rather pay for the longer cab ride and be content with my arrangements, than be close to the job and ready to burn this bitch to the ground. Actually, I need to see if its possible to just have them rent me a car, so I can drive down and be mobile while Im here. Im gonna look into that. I took the train this time, which was a much better experience than the plane fuckery I've been having to endure, but Im a driver. I'd much rather do that. Im gonna see if the powers that be will approve that.
I had a good time with the midgets at home this weekend, and didnt get to see all of my friends, nor the random ass people requesting that I drop by, but I enjoyed myself with the couple of people that I did catch up with. I made a valiant attempt to talk to my mother but.... she'll never change. I'll leave it at that. My son isnt quite the innocent though. He's contributing to their drama with his attitude and laziness, so I had to have a chat with him about that too. I have to monitor that situation some more over the next couple of weeks. I dont want to make any rash decisions, with only half the information.
A whole lotta money later, I was exhausted this morning (shocker LOL) and totally not looking forward to any further travel, but the upside is that hotel beds are always ridiculously comfortable. I'll definitely get a good sleep and Lord knows Im due for one. I forgot my vitamins, so to compensate, I've decided to fast this week: Im gonna live on bacardi and Lays LOL. Dont question my methods LOL.
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