Paralyzed

I'm gonna take this one slowly because.... I guess I'm still working through it.

Got a call today from my [paternal] sister, calling to tell me our father wasn't doing well. Apparently my cousin - the one who had been working on my forgiveness of my father for years - had called her to let her know he was in the hospital and things weren't looking good. My sister, in turn, called me. She hasn't spoken to or seen him in 20 years herself and probably has more hostility toward him than I did (I digress) but she has decided to drive down to Detroit to see him just so she wouldn't have any regrets should this be his last round. She thought I might want to do the same.

I do.... but..... (sigh)